Use what you have.

It has been some time since I have written you- not because I have nothing to say-

But because I have everything to say-

So much to say it’s hard to know where to begin in specific. But here I will try

I just spent two weeks in glorious Chilean Patagonia fishing and on horseback and it was a time of restoration

A time of enjoying being cared for.

One would think it would be full of new awarenesses because of all the new stimuli

My heart was a strange kind of quiet; A moment of rest from the intensity of being me. Haha.

I enjoyed that immensely.

And about 36 hours of continuous travel returned me home to the ranch. Ii was able to reset my sleep easily.

I sat on the porch to watch the sun and smoke a cigar and to breathe in my sense of well being.

My discernment said to me

‘Enjoy, we are going to go deeper. There is more for you.’ To which I handily and defiantly replied ‘NO’ out loud to the coyotes and the javelinas…

Not that that would matter much- life has what is had for us to unfold and learn and one can either go willingly or stubbornly.

One way hurts a great deal worse.

But immediately it all began: the challenging of an agreement I have with a client…

The trip to Phoenix to be in service to the inner prompt to go and be of service…

Saying things that break rules or signify rebellion or challenge the status quo….

People think it is easy for me . It is not always I too have a voice that says I am not ready yet.

No

Not now

Why do you have to say that like that?

A critic saying I am not ready yet or not enough or too much.

While I do admit I am quite well versed in rebelling against it- I am not immune to it.

I spent my weekend being in service to the principle of universal good. Being available to this and willingly subjecting myself to the discomfort of presenting the people listening to me with a new way to see things.

As it sat in a hotel lobby- one person would find their way to me at time and the conversation would unfold and I would do my work with them.

Listening and serving the truths that are there for us to see and use.

The way this happens for me is kind of a dance into the unknown. I was SUPPOSED to be in a room with others at an event I paid to attend.

Instead I sat in the lobby loving on people because that in fact is what I was there to do.

It didn’t take any methodology. It didn’t take more healing. It didn’t take ‘when I feel ready.’

It didn’t take resolving my trauma or consulting an oracle.

It took willingness to step out and love the ones who come before me as powerfully as I can.

On a bench with everyone walking by and watching or talking loudly or whatever.

Holding them as they cry and wonder what hit them or ask for more or resist me or think I have the magic when they do not or as they disagree.

Look-

You don’t need to be fixed.

You need to demonstrate your willingness to love even when it is very uncomfortable.

To invite them forward.

It’s not about your preference, really. It is about being in step with life and all it has for us.

When we get down to that- that BECOMES our preference, even with the challenge that brings.

USE WHAT YOU HAVE.

NOW.

More will come.

Craig